
On her husband’s calmness…
“I wanted to yell from a rooftop and cry and scream. Bill was the one who said, “Calm down” – and he got out a legal pad. I’m like, “Bill, this isn’t one of your business deals.” He goes, “We’ve got to make a list and figure out the pros and cons of a lumpectomy with radiation and anti-estrogen therapy, and the pros and cons of a mastectomy. Let’s figure this out.””
Bill’s emotional hardships during the treatment…
“As a husband and as a man, you wish you could trade places with your wife, but you can’t, and it sucks. I of course had my moments. But you know, you’ve got to be strong; I would never break down in front of her. I wasn’t curled up in a fetal position in the shower, but there were moments when it was like, “It’s not fair. Why does she have to go through this?” There was anger.”
On her self-image after the surgery…
“At first I didn’t want to look in the mirror, because I felt like, I’m getting better every day and this is about my health, so I shouldn’t get bogged down by what I see in the mirror. I knew I wasn’t going to look like a bikini model, so why look? Why even put the image in my head?”
On her attitude towards her career…
“I’ll be totally honest. While I was recovering, I was thinking, I’m really going to be asking people what they’re wearing? I didn’t know if I could find the joy in it again. But it didn’t take long.”
What she told her coworkers…
“It was like, “Hey, guys, cut the bulls—t. I’m the exact same person I was before. I’m still shallow, I still love clothes, I still want to talk fashion, I still want to gossip, so lay it on me.” They were like, “Thank God.””
On how she used her illness as a platform…
“We’ve been given this incredible platform, and we think it was for a reason. I truly believe that. When I got my job at E!, I was the thirty-ninth person who auditioned. I wasn’t the prettiest, I wasn’t the smartest, I wasn’t the most talented. And I always wondered why I got the job. Now I think God knew I wouldn’t be a selfish little cow with this platform, and I’d actually try to do something good with it.”

